Hm

I realize that in my last post I may have been a little harsh. I forgot that some idiots have feelings too ;) Sorry everyone.

I got a new laptop! It is the definition of hot. I LOVE it.

Last night I got this weird depressed feeling that I've never had before. I got it all of a sudden, for no reason at all. I didn't like it. It didn't pass until today. I have to be more careful in the future.

Anyway, I'm going to go, this was just a short post. See ya!

~Little Lifeguard!~

Idiots

I was having a chat with my friend from school, one of the only true friends from school, and I found that the group is falling out. Well, good. I find them all to be immature, stupid idiots who have no idea how to act their age. I know I sound stupid saying that, but honestly, look at them. They make themselves look so stupid. I guess I grew out of this a little early...like before I started it. Oh well.

Creepy Niall has a Deviantart site, which I have to, but he writes things on it that I hate. He wrote this thing that said if you do anything like wear black and studded bracelets and have cut or done/wore anything that other people may have done/worn, you are automatically unoriginal and should stopping doing/wearing it. This bugs me. Does he think maybe people have done/are doing/have worn/are wearing these things for a reason? Maybe it makes them feel good, or relieves tension? Just because everybody on earth are not like you, CN, doesn't mean they are doing things wrong.

Now, the next thing I saw is not meant to start a political debate. I respect Paul Martain for putting out that annoucement. At least he is being accountable and is trying. He could have just said that there won't be an election until he calls it, and then have it forced. Mind you, I would still vote conservative, because that's mostly where I am on the political scale.

I love listening to Kyle and his band in the garage. It's so fun.

I'll see you all later.

~Me~

Hot Stuff

Just to let everyone know, this is a little bit of an x-rated post. Not extremely x-rated, but there are references to it. More PG-13. Reader discretion is advised.

So today I got my CBGB stuff in the mail! I now have two necklaces, one in pink and one in white marble, and I have a braclet which is pink. I'm still pretty sad that I lost my red one, but these sort of make up for it. That one was just kind of a thing to help me remember my brain surgery...

I went to Chris's last night. He's just amazing. Simply the best. We did something that I really know we shouldn't have, but I stopped him before it got out of hand. We still did it though, which isn't good. I just have to remember to NEVER DO IT AGAIN! I realize this sounds kind of bad...it's not like I'm stopping us from having sex or anything. It's just that I'm stopping us from doing it a certain way. Because I don't want to be pregnant.

SO! I was watching Much More Music last night and it had the top 20 hottest guys in music. I didn't agree with a lot of them, so I decided to make my own list.

Little Lifeguard's Top 10 Hottest Guys In Music:
10) Nikki Sixx - good bassist
9) Jon Bon Jovi - quite a nice smile
8) Steven Tyler - not very good looking, but has quite the sexual appeal on stage.
7) Duff McKegen - hot body now, hot hair, and is wicked on a bass.
6) Mark McGrath - super hot, but his music is just OK.
5) Joe Perry - amazing on the guitar, but his body is just OK.
4) Tommy Lee - sooo much sex appeal
3) Mick Jagger - he's quite girly, but he has an innocent face. And he rocks.
2) Scott Weiland - super skinny, but amazing.
1) Slash - the Guitar God

And neeeeext:

Little Lifeguards Top Worst Guys In Music, Even Though They Are Usually Called Hot
5) Justin Timberlake - he was in N'Sync. Period.
4) Bono - I'm sorry, I hate U2. His music has lately all sounded the same, and he releases all the songs on an album at one time.
3)Gilby Clark - he may have been in G'N'R' when Izzy left, but that doesn't mean he's cool.
2) 50 Cent - his videos all have scantally clad women, which in my opinion is making up for something.
1) Usher - he dances. What kind of heterosexual man thinks it's cool to dance?

I'm sorry if this offended anyone. It wasn't meant to, that's just what I think.

Anyway, it's back to the grindstone. I spent enough time on this list.

~Little Lifeguard!~

Whisk It Good!

Hey everyone. I've deleted my other blogger account so no one can accidently stumble upon this one. Yes! I'm free! Bwa ha ha. That tickles MY fancy.

I went to my aunt's soccer game today. It was pretty fun. She's so tiny and everyone else was huge, it made me laugh. My Dad never really got along with her, and showing up kind of made me feel like Dad was being the bigger person. We had fun though. I don't really watch that sport, but this time it was better because I actually know someone playing. It made me really miss the days Kyle used to play football. I want to cheer someone on. Not school sports though, because then you're just cheering for EVERYONE, and that's not as fun.

I think I'm going to publish some of my poems. I'm trying to find a place that will publish it for FREE, but I don't think that's really going to happen. So maybe I'll just keep them to myself. I could send one or two to little publishing sites, but then I thought, if you get one published in a book, does that mean you can't send it to other ones? Hm. Oh well.

I find I'm getting stressed about tiny things. Certain people, actually, stress me out a lot. I find that if I even see some people's names, I get this stomach pain. It's STUPID, and I hate it. I wish I couldn't feel pain anymore. But whatever. Maybe I just need a long, long vacation. Maybe I should go on tour with Velvet Revolver. That'd be pretty sweet. Make up a ton of money, and then follow them around on their next tour. I really wish I could actually do that. But I wonder if the pain would actually disappear. If I didn't tell anyone but my parents, Kyle, and Chris where I was going, it could actually work. But Kyle would want to come, and I'd want Chris to come. So I don't know. I guess that would be the same thing as running away, and I can't do that. I never want to run away from my problems. I want to learn from them. I just wish there wasn't pain involved.

I just called Jo and Janelle to see if either of them wanted to hang out, but neither were home. Sometimes I wonder if Jo just doesn't pick up when I call her, because she seems to never be home or near her cell. What's the point of having a cell if you leave it on and don't pick it up? I was at the VR concert and she was across the stadium, so I called her while watching with the binoculars, and she looked at it and then put it away without picking up. So I don't know what that's about. I can't help but feel left out in the school group. They don't include me on get togethers or parties or anything. I feel like I'm too young to hang out with Chris's friends, but too old to hang out with the school friends. It really does NOT work for me.

Anyway. I think I'm going to go play the Sims for a bit. I'll see if that destresses me. Tschus.

~Me~

Wow

Hi everyone.

This is my third blog. I had one on this before, Velvet Thoughts (obviously), and one on livejournal, also called Velvet Thoughts. However, my friends all had those addresses, and I kind of wanted a place I could post without anyone reading it. So, here is Velvet Thoughts 3, a place for me to talk and for people that I don't know to listen. Unless I find out this address will pop up somewhere, in which case I will probably never write on here again. Just as a warning.

I'm kind of in the mood to jump up and scream "I'M IN LOVE!" I can't do this because right now I'm on crutches, recovering from hip surgery. But it's true! I'm in love. It's the best! I don't think I've ever had love like this. A few years ago I was in love, but that sucked. I think it was more one-way. But for this one, it's perfect. He's amazing. Isn't that funny? I try so hard to find a guy to love me, even though I'm only in grade 12, and he was actually there the whole time. I can't believe it.

Aww I'm watching Sex in the City. This is the best show. Miranda and Steve got back together! And Charolette is okay! I'm so happy. I wish my life was a TV show.

Anyway, I'm going to get back to my Social work...and watching TV. I can't help it, I just get distracted so easily. Anyway, everyone please feel free to comment. This blog is for everyone's eyes, except for those of the people I know. See you all later!

~Me!~